A busy day

Today has not been the happiest of my life. I am being investigated for recurrence of a cancer which I thought I had beaten 12 years ago.. I have had a biopsy, ultra sound, CT scan and today bone scan. This meant my veins were filled with radio active dye - .beware pregnant women and small children I glow in the dark. Luckily I had my elder son with me and in the 3 hours wait for the scan we went to John Lewis to exclaim at all the beautiful things we couldn't afford and to drink hot choc with cream and marshmallows and then to Sutton Park to admire the amazing trees in their new dresses. Unfortunately it was raining so not at its best but the peace was wonderful. Then back to hospital for the scan with the big beast bearing down on my face and breathing its power over me. Such a relief when it began to move down my body and I saw the ceiling and light again.
Well that's over now, but tomorrow I hear the verdict of all the investigations and what if anything the doctors are going to do. Having been through it before I'm feeling sick and headachy, wanting to go to bed, to curl up in my basket like a sick dog but not daring to in case the nightmare scenario starts up. 

Yesterday when the sun was shining I took a picture of my garden at its springtime best

nearer God's heart in a garden

 

 

 

 

Buffy is curled up by my feet. How trusting she is. - I wish I could be like that.

here's to the next time